Friday, December 26, 2008

Coming clean

Hello. My name is Nancie and I am yo-yo dieter.
This is the part where you say "hello Nancie."
A while back you might remember that I posted about going on (yet another) diet. As usual, it lasted about 3 days and I was back to my bad habits again.
I haven't always been fat and out of shape. Of course I wasn't the skinny bitch either. Underneath all this blubber is a strong, athletic, sexy woman. My ideal body is a curvy size 10. Currently I am between a size 18 and 20. The only curves I have are rolls. I am plus size. Obese.
Growing up I had a pool and lived in it in the summertime. I never had to watch what I ate cause somehow I burned it off. Skateboarding. Biking. Roller skating. Softball. I was even on the track team.
Right now I couldn't walk a brisk mile without getting light headed and borderline passing out. I have a sedentary job and have neglected myself for too dang long. I feed my body too much processed crap and I'm the heaviest I have EVER been (even pregnant). It's not funny anymore. It's disgusting. My back hurts almost all the time. I can't go up a flight of stairs without being out of breath. I have no energy. I have become this person I SWORE I never would. I have disappointed myself. For the last time.
January 1st will be the beginning of my journey. My journey to the real me. My journey to health and mental well being. I don't care how long it takes. This fat suit is coming off. I know it wont happen over night. I'm in it for the long haul.
If you want to support me, I would greatly appreciate it. This is what I'm doing: I've done it before and I know I can do it again.
I'm not doing it for the money. I'm doing it for me. For my kids. For my (someday) grand kids.
I'm doing it so that I can be a better mom. A better friend. A better wife. A better me.


jess said...

you can do this!!

it would help if you could force yourself to plan meals and cook at home more often. i know that's not your fave thing...


Bridge said...

I'll be there along with you.

The Dave said...

All I know is Bill Phillips is BACK!! I found the reason I did BFL to begin with before EAS corrupted it for their own gain.


Nan said...

jess: I actually don't mind cooking if I have help cleaning.
Bridge: It's nice to know I'll have someone for support-right back atcha!
Dave: I'm excited that it's a bit more modified for our needs. And I already posted the website you dork ;)

Al said...

good on ya, Nan!!! i'll be your cheerleader (yes, i'll wear the skimpy skirt...) i only ask you cheer me on in my attempt to run a 1/2 marathon in june

may the force be with both of us